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2011-12-12T04:41:00.000-08:00

I know you must be super angry with me right now..
Like.. Why the hell is she having a blog when she's not even updating it like before?!
Okay, I don't give a damn. I'm busy.
Kidding!!!

But I was really busy for the past few months.. I promise I will try to update as frequently as possible.
So.. Today was the most sour day amongst the rest. Well.. I mean, if your boyfriend has to leave you for so many days when you guys have bee meeting up almost everyday, it is really very bad.
Maybe I will have separation anxiety.. Oh no.. HHAHAHAHA, KIDDING!
Don't worry about me. I will be cool..

I miss my boyfriend. Very very much. I love him.
Take good care of yourself there. Get a sim card and call me asap.
I love you.

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2011-09-12T21:50:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-22T18:34:00.000-07:00

Hard Rock Cafe in Resort World

Okay.. I know.. I've not been realllllly active nowadays but today.. This post was made with so much love and quite some effort! So I have already made it up to you people! Love me!

Woke up so early just to prepare and meet Mr Lim.

The first scene that greeted me was this..

Cool or what? I got into the bed and started snuggling the blanket! My favourite feature of all time!

Actually wanted to give him a surprise but Aunty foiled my plan, she let it out.. :(

We'd fun anyway!

LIM BOYS HAVE TO BATHE!

The first one out..

The followed by this.

Hahahaha! I'm invading his privacy by posting such photos of him on my blog.. Will I get sued? :p I showed him his photos afterwards and he was apparently super shocked..

'Huh? Those photos are so EMBARRASSING!'

Guess who are we waiting for next?

Yes, if you guessed Lim Wei Ren..

I invaded his privacy as well..

As he was looking for clothes to change into..

I took this.. HAHAHHAHA! Not enough?

Better view?! Hahahahahaha! Tell me if your boyfriend is hotter! :D

Then he went, 'Thanks la, without my face la.'.

Kthxbai, here you go!

Okay, Here's one with his clothes on, no nothing shown. I reckon you must be sick and tired of all the bodies that I've taken so far..

A very artsy photo of the brothers hiao-ing!

Proof number 1, styling their hair together in the toilet. Common but still, superbly hiao. I love!

Helping his brother with his hair.. He's influencing his brother to be like him as hiao as ever. I'm sure!

Okay okay.. I am also very hiao.. A picture of me for everyone of you that miss me in actions. :p

We took this photo together and look closely to my closeup for the stuff he has at the right..

BIORE nose strips! HAHAHAHA! Hiaoness max, influenced by MOI. :p

Showing off his arm muscles, definitely!

Decided to take some more artsy photos in his house..

MEDALS!

Sports and Hiaoness is currently his thing yeah?

Thanks baby for taking all such wonderful pictures!

After chiding him for not making his bed, he finally did..

Oh man.. I love these photos of us! Ka jiao him when he was making his bed, invading his privacy, yet again...

GOT THAT?

I was busy eating the buffet in Hard Rock restaurant so.. I didnt manage to snap any pictures. But I have one last picture to post before I go..

The lift for passenger is very well designed so I'd decided that I must at least have a picture of that before I proceed..

TADAHHH!

Only this because the cleaner was wiping the other half of the crystals. Can you see a white patch at the right side of the crystals? Thats the cleaner.. :D Go check out Hard Rock Hotel yeah!?

Tonight I will be attending Lovel bby's birthday celebration, excited! O baby is charged and all ready to go! I will definitely update! Stay tune!

2011-04-14T19:16:00.000-07:00

My holidays are ending soon.. My school is starting soon..
How come I do not sound excited at all? Okay perhaps I really am not excited. So.. I'm here to say.. This blog will be kinda dead for a long long while when school begins.
Good day good day.

2011-04-12T20:58:00.000-07:00

I find it cute when boys, ■Make weird faces ■Say “aww” ■Ask how your day was ■Dance ridiculously ■Lick their lips ■Get frustrated ■Laugh ■Sing to you ■Bite their lower lip ■Make that sexy half smile ■Have proper grammar ■Are funny ■Tease me a little ■Smile at me when im laughing at something else

2011-04-11T18:23:00.000-07:00

The Skinny obsession
I woke up in the morning thinking about this topic all along. This topic whereby all girls would be interested to read on. This topic that has troubled thousands and millions of girls on the universe. This topic on wanting to be ultra skinny. Yes, you've seen it right. Like this skinny..

I am real sorry but this is really disgusting. Think about it girls, is that what you really would wanna look like? Maybe to some of you, she's pretty and she's a perfect body. I will tell you that she looks emaciated and haggard.
I can give you reasons why never to be like her.

1. You look ugly.
2. You look haggard, instant aging to about 10 years or more your age.
3. You have NO BOOBS! *OH NOOOOOO!*
4. When your boyfriend wrap his arms around you, all he can feel is your bloody bones.
*Know why thats not good? They will feel that they will have to constantly shower you with care and attention because you're just this FRAGILE. Soon, they got sick of it and you BAM, you just got ditched. Sad, lonely and alone with your that frame of bones. FYI, guys love voluptuous girls.
5. Your health will be seriously affected due to the lack of nutrients.
6. You get lethargic easily.
7. You are always unhappy because you're starving yourself, depriving yourself of food.
8. You deter people away.
9. Nothing look nice on you. Think, any pieces of clothing on a skeleton, BOOBLESS. Chio not?
10. 2012 is coming. (Hehehe, I've no number 10) The world is ending? NOT.

So the above model is considered as skinny. I don't understand why people consider me as skinny and actually asked if I am anorexic(check out my Formspring.).. So stop asking me such questions before I go insane and start hurling on my blog.
Moving on to another category which will be on Slim girls.

Ah! Now I talk about Heidi Klum.
She's a mother of two(I think) and she's still keeping her body at a relatively good condition(for a mom, you absolutely can't deny that fact). Oh in case you misunderstand me, the above picture was not a picture of her after she gave birth, it was before. So yeah..
So yes, I definitely belong to this category. I am this confident of my body please. Check it out yourself. http://jasmineissohot.blogspot.com/2011_02_01_archive.html Just scroll down, kthxbai.
I mean.. How can I be anorexic to you guys?!
Okay, back to where I was.. Just look at Heidi, a standard slim female. You wanna be like her or an ANOREXIC model as shown above? OH COME ON.. Heidi has BOOBS and she looks good with all kinds of clothings! Her husband has more to explore and she can satisfy her husband EASILY. Why not her but be anorexic?
Oh yeah.. She has BOOBS and YET she looks good. Many of you has boobs but please.. You know what they are made up of.. Yeah, lipo. Made up of lipo.
So yeah, my boyfriend loves me and I am awesome.
Oh yeah! Remember I once talked about Barbara on my blog?! If you've forgotten all about it, please go to my archive and click on January! Yeah, she's a body full of lipo! One good example! But nowadays.. As our society grows and mankind evolved.. Especially the males.. They have kinda fallen in love with larger females.. Like..

Yeah! She's a perfect example of what I am referring to!
So to many guys out there, she's her basic look and she has BOOBS(Jeremy's favourite :p)! Plus point for her.. She has a nice collar bone, who says you must be skinny to have such a collar bone?
So this is the type of girls, guys are looking for now.. I'm not bullshitting and it has been proven! It was shown whereby guys are supposed to select the type of girls they like..
Girl No. 1(All the way on the left) Girl No. 2(In the middle) Girl No. 3(All the way on the right)

Girl number 3 got picked most! She's deem the most beautiful and sexier ones out of the three.

Sigh. I am number 2 type of girls and I don't get picked that often..
Whatever.
My hot boyfriend loves me and has chosen a number 2 instead for a three for a change!
So my verdict for this topic will be..
STOP STARVING YOURSELF, LOOKING INTO THE MIRROR AND SAY, 'IM NOT GONNA WAT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE! FUCK MY LIFE!!! FML FML FML~~~'.
You know how annoying can that be? This post was created not to comfort anybody but to tell you that hey, your perspective on yourself has all along been wrong. Models have been steteotyped as being super skinny.. Now we have Plus Sized models contest! Heyyo, the time has change. Shut up and JUST EAT NORMALLY and your body will work its way out. Peace out dickies.

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2011-04-11T18:11:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-09T06:40:00.000-07:00

Sentosa, anybody?

I woke up really early in the morning hoping that I can do something to get things off my mind. To get this man off my mind. Well, apparently, I did not manage to do so because he was all I was thinking and talking about the whole damn day. Damn it.

I went to Vivo City alone as it was not convenient for me to actually take a bus and meet them at Lot 1 first then change to another bus heading towards Vivo. So it was me and my backpack and off I go. The journey was long, but bearable with songs to go with.

They were so late that I couldn't help it but decided to go solo. Bought tickets and took the monorail just to find this woman. This particular person who recently just contacted me.

Jocasta Mak Yu Er, here you go.

Was updating each other about our lives. It was kinda fun because I am always this freaking high around people I know..

This reminded me of Lovel Bby.. I miss her like as if I haven't seen her for ages.. (Although I just did. Right after I came home from Sentosa.) I am always super enthusiastic when I am with her! I needa breathe now, bby!

Camwhore picture 1

Camwhore picture 2

Jocasta works in GoGreen which is the place whereby people rent bicycles. She allowed me to go for a test run for this special bicycle which runs on battery. It has multi functions which allows you to either ride it in standard, auto or power-up mode. All of those make riding it an ease! You definitely should give it a try! $17 for an hour but you definitely can go really far! Mummy!! I want a bicycle like that please! *Puppy eyes*

The battery. Duh, you have to charge it of course..

Come to GoGreen! I'm advertising for them!

If you're a student, better still! You can get to enjoy the Student Special at $8 per hour whereas adults have to pay an extra of $4 which is $12 for an hour! :D

The above pictures are not meant for people above the age of 12++, please do not follow.

This lil bike is just too small, hello.. If you get what I mean, it is four wheeled.. I'm just so young at heart! :p

The shop keeper!

Always texting, right?

She (Jocasta) was using my baby, snapping random pictures, trying to be artsy. Lets just give her the credits alright?

Not only to be artsy with her surrounding objects, but she, herself.. Must pose like a model.

Super STEP YI GE LEH! :p

Sangeetha! The sun was awesome bright but not scorching hot. Just the way I like it to be.

I have brown eyes, if you fail to notice..

Their funny acts all captured. Maybe not. Look at Alwee.. Trying so hard to flex his abdominal muscles. Please, not in front of me. I've seen better. :p

Plus, look at Radzi's BELLY!! Totally flabby! He's a womanly figure, that 'S' shape figure which I think goes well on him!

Oh look, I'm so pretty please! Alwee can never hog the limelight as long as I'm in the picture..

How so?

BEHOLD..
WONDERFUL AND SUPER AWESOME PRETTY JASMINE!

Well, I was dared by Jocasta to upload this wonderful picture of me. See, nobody issues me such a challenge, I'm dared. What about you?

Peace out duckies.

2011-04-07T23:17:00.000-07:00

Its a little depressing that my face is now red like apple and covered with scar marks. I was drenched with acid. Kidding.. You know I was kidding.. I went for facial and the redness was caused by Extraction, which refers to the method of removing your blackheads, pimples and whiteheads. It was not really painful but it all depends on your threshold for pain. I've a high level of pain tolerance, I don't know about you. I was grossed out when I heard how people choose between me and someone who I deem hideous. I was out chosen and that has never happened. Like seriously? I couldnt get enough of that bullshit with mummy. We were talking about that issue, and I showed mummy her photos. My mum, who doesn't like to criticise people, actually said this.. 'Not because you're my daughter that I say this, but really, she has no fight at all.. She looks so kiddy and she's just so not proportionate. How is she sweet looking pretty at all?'

Now I hear justice. How can she possibly be compared against me? I agree. Because I've never been compared in such a manner and lost that I got so devastated. Thats unbearable. I must rant it out, I must talk to someone who understands what I mean. I usually don't get offended when people compare me to somebody because I definitely stand out. This time round, I got so affected and at the same time, offended. SHE'S FUCKING HIDEOUS. How I wish I can post her picture on my blog and say, 'You be the judge' again. I won't do it, I won't name her, I will give her a rest. Afterall, she has done nothing wrong and she wasn't the one who started the fire. She has nice skin, pimples free, but she's dark. Nothing wrong with being dark my Indian friends, but as a chinese, you're dark. Don't even try to make it sound nice, tanned, you're not at all but DARK.

Grossed me out a lil further more. I can't stop thinking and I just have a lot to say. I just can't swallow this and treat it as nothing has happened no matter how magnanimous I am. I love listening to such things but this is seriously an insult. You've no idea how insulted I felt after hearing this. I don't want to hear things like, 'Different people has different preference.' Shut up, she's way out of my league. Call me a bitch, I am Neither do I wanna hear, 'I will still choose you.' I'm sorry, you know who you are. Its not about who you will choose, it is about me. It is about how disgusting, abhorrent this whole shit is. I can't believe I am still smiling when I heard it.

Okay. Okay. Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. True that. That doesn't apply to me.

2011-04-06T18:08:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Mummies!

It was both Aunty Celine and Aunty Rina's birthday because they are twins. Oh, it was ah ma's birthday on that day itself too! Ah ma, being Aunty Celine and Aunty Rina's mother.

So the day before their birthday, we have everything on set for the Lim's boys. Presents, check.

The next day we have our cake check!

Aunty Elsie was busy preparing for our dinner in the kitchen since 12 pm in the afternoon.. What we had was..

Eggs

Ikan (Fish)

Chicken wings and luncheon meat

So what could it be?

NASI LEMAK!

Now now.. Am I making you drool? I am sure I did!

So.. Here is a picture of the cake we bought.

I find it quite awesome, as you can see.. Its from Polar, go try it out. Kinda worth it.

The three ladies!

Two cakes. One from Amelia(Aunty Rina's second daughter).

She got it from the Icing whatever you call that.. The shop which provides stations for customers to decorate their own cakes!

Not very ready..

Kinda ready but ah ma was too eager to try out the cake.. I guess.. Hahahaha!

Aunty Celine (Wei Ren's mommy) posing with her presents.

I shall end this post with Wei Feng who was so eager to show off his huge present(cake mixer) for his mother!

All's well ends well! Good day people! I will be back!

2011-03-28T20:14:00.000-07:00

The balancing act.

I was having so much fun gossiping about some fat bitch yesterday while eating Sushi in Sakae.

Disgusted me so so much but my appetite was still pretty awesome!

Oh yeah, we were asked to fold frogs for charity cause.. Each table were given four pieces of paper and I folded all the frogs ALL BY MYSELF! *claiming credits*

P/s: You might be wondering, why are there 3 frogs when I said we were given four pieces of papers.. Jeremy used one of the pieces to wipe his damn mouth! Sakae didn't provide you with tissues huh?! Another disgusting thing!

They ordered Enoki mushrooms wrapped around with beef straps. As they were eating, Shaun managed to make Jeremy choked and he vomited the whole damn chunk out. Okay, That was really appalling! But it was the highlight of our lunch, really hilarious!

The table I was sitting with..

Bobby darling!

And definitely, Jeremy(choker) and Shaun(what’s that face all about?)

Note what was Jeremy wearing? He said that it was a limited edition, nobody was to dirty it. Ya right. It has ice-cream stain on it already, what else? ;p

Till the next time! I promise I will show you the process of me baking! Hahaha! It wouldn't be all talk and no action.

By the way, my school is starting soon! I am anticipating it and at the same time a lil unwilling to start. Holidays are ending, it means.

2011-03-22T19:25:00.000-07:00

Report lost?

Guess you'd have known what I am gonna talk about right now..

WHICH CHEAPSKATE TOOK MY PHONE?!

You've no integrity, you're deserve no sympathy when you trip and fall, or choke on a fishball on a beautiful Monday! Jeeeez!

Actually.. I blame myself for being such a princess and a muddle-head as well. Okay, I deserve it. I need to learn to live the life of being a commoner..

I'm now using Nokia Xpressmusic(commoner’s life starts now)..

Which, I was surprisingly happy with that I'm willing to use it temporarily instead of Sony Ericsson's Aino(Loser phone, right?)! Don’t be mad at me Mr Lim, I know you can’t bear to anyway!

It is loud and I type with lightning speed. I'm just very happy with it suddenly..

Life can be pretty simple sometimes..

I was feeling so depress the last few days because I couldn't find a phone that I like even though I can buy it on the spot. Then I was happy that I'm using this 'cock' phone because it is so much pleasure typing. The life of the battery is long too, which makes me happy all day..

It was then I realized.. All I want is just some simplicity to get me through the day.

As long as I get to type peacefully, get to contact those who are dear to me and allowing them to contact me, I'm contended.

I won't be thinking of getting a new phone until one hits me.

I will have a lot to update soon. Don't you worry.

2011-03-13T21:00:00.000-07:00

Sentosa and Universal Studio for my weekends!

It was so tiring, I promise you this.

Sentosa was great with the company of great people. I'm talking about the quality of the people I'm hanging out with not the quantity please. Four of us doing absolutely nothing but just chilling on top of a tower. That's fair enough and definitely good enough for Moby! Who? Tell you in a while.

Wei Feng!

Yes, I looked like a tai tai wearing a dress, carrying Burberry with a properly groomed dog, MOBY! P/s: You've never seen me walk like a tai tai yet. :p

While waiting to ride the tram, the person in charge came and told us that we couldn't bring Momo up the tramp unless kept in its bag. Duh, of course we know that. He asked us where are we from.. 'We're from Indonesia.' I said in impulse.

Duh do we look poor? I just said I looked like a rich tai tai. Maybe I should say we came from Japan since people thinks that I went to Japan for surgery to look Jap. (Feeling sour now). -.-

He told us that Singapoereans like to take videos and post it on Stomp therefore it is better to do things in discreet. Nb. We don't know what is Stomp? We dealt with perverts showing me their dicks via Webcam before (How? Subjecting them to Stomp), you were saying we don't know what is STOMP? Period.

Of course, she's my bby! Wondeful duo right? Who needs more? We have enough people we need in our life.

The China man of the day. Hahaha! Momo likes him!

I love that bimbotic face of mine.. I don't understand why people nowadays like that face so much. The reason is kinda simple.. To have a V-shape face effect right? Laoniang don't need, suck it girls. :)

A lil Hawaiian here right? :D

Should I set this as Facebook dp since I looked so chio and he looked so shuai in this? Yes I should!

Bimbotic look again! You guys should totally enlarge this picture and take a look at his lashes. Long and curly maximum!

Wei Loong! He got that hiao-ness from me already! Yay! 'Wait! Where is the mirror? I needa do my hair too!' he said! Awesome. Eyes on Wei Loong and off me because I know I will receive comments on my boobs again. Aren't you guys tired?

Why five dollars? Get $1000 notes la!

He wanted a picture there and he ALMOST couldn't get up.. Phew.

I know my Olympus baby rocks!

Wei Feng was so adorable!

Toast Box. Their toast was effing nasty.. Please get me Wang's toast. My super glossy skin!

Philas? How do you spell his name? Philus? What? He recognized me out of the wave of crowds in toast box!

A very artsy photo taken by my baby. Love you baby. :D

By the way, this picture was taken together with Uncle Sam, he's a professional photographer, patiently scrutinising my baby and teaching me how to fully utilize it. He will get his and then teach me the right way to use it.

And baby took pictures with such an awesome resolution! I couldn't upload it onto blogger! It takes !@#!@%@, this long! Till next time!

Ciaos!

2011-03-05T17:16:00.000-08:00

All rounded girlfriend.

Yes, after having a dip in the pool, I felt AWESOME and definitely hungry.. Dang.
Went to NTUC and bought all the ingredients needed for our lunch.
I was improvising what to cook with whatever ingredients I find good in the market. :)
Therefore.. The recipe of the day!

Seared Salmon with pan vegetables spaghetti!
The spaghetti was a lil too bland, I feel. Although he kept saying that he felt okay with it.. Well.. L

To fill your eyes with all these amazing looking food!

Look! All polished off!

Look at the succulent salmon with such a healthy glow! Or it is just my camera? :p

Pan vegetables!

In order to allow them to eat in peace, I tried so hard to remove every bones in the salmon.. See how focused I was? :D

WeiLoong initiated to help out, 'Jie Jasmine, is there anything I can do?'. :)
He shall cut the vegetables then.

Thats pretty much it for my Saturday.

The dinner on Sunday was fantastic too!

2011-03-03T17:55:00.000-08:00

Oh come on.

I’m bespectacled, always have been. I don’t like to wear spectacles but you know, I LOOK SO CUTE IN IT! Kthxbai.

This picture above is for Lim Wei Ren! I have DEFINED JAW LINE and that cheeks. :P

I’m always so frustrated with everything in my house. I don’t even feel like staying home. Like I say, the only time I feel like staying home is when my mom’s not around. She’s never giving me peace and that’s probably because she’s currently experiencing her menopause. Fuck, why take it out on me, on us?

I’m so outta the house.

Alright, I'm very happy now. YAYNESS!

Enrollment package has arrived! Clearing out all the paperworks! Almost there! :D

2011-02-28T19:46:00.000-08:00

I like this. Read and if you want, follow it. Because I'm so gonna do it.

I'm awesome.

"Before you speak, listen.

Before you write, think.

Before you spend, earn.

Before you invest, investigate.

Before you criticize, wait.

Before you pray, forgive.

Before you quit, try.

Before you retire, save.

Before you die, give."

2011-02-28T16:54:00.000-08:00

'Shall we talk?' - last scene.

The last scene for SWT was easy and fun, perhaps because it is the last time I may get to see the crew (Actually more of the sound man.)

He's the sound man! And yes! I stole this picture from Facebook because I wanna show you guys how cute he is! Oh yeah! He's also one muscular man! Years of carrying heavy objects and a huge microphone. Any idea how the microphone looks like?

This is how it looks like. SEE! That’s him carrying it! Okay okay.. Another stolen picture from him BUT to show you people better what I was talking about! All for you people! *Grins*

Sound man is so cute, see you some day.

What about yesterday?

Yes, I'm practically bringing my baby everywhere, so you can expect updates from me maybe like.. Every day? YAYNESSSSS MUCH?!

Kthxbai.

This is so gonna be my Profile picture in Facebook, people!

By the way, Lim Wei Ren looks like he's got defined jaw line in this picture.

But you know.. Looks like for him but I HAVE! Hahahaha! *smirk*

Time passed so fast, maybe it is just us.. A moment ago it was just 3.30 in the afternoon and the next moment it was 6.30! That was insane right? One thing I know, whenever we are together, time really does fly. Yesterday was the only time I didn't whine about going to the set alone and returning alone. Definitely, their food was up to my standard for the first time. Didn't manage to snap any picture of my food but it was kinda delicious, or maybe I was just hungry.

'Where is Si Si?' :(

Fan Di, very busy with all the stuffs such as props and handling us talents.

Justin was the guy above. I have thought of whining about him in my blog. But look at his face closely. He was almost dying, so pale and definitely lack of sleep. I will let you off. :)

Oh that's me!!! Yay!
Ryan was doing some touch up for me.

Ta dahhhhhhh!

Since you've done such a great job, take a picture with you!

Oh! That was me during most of the shoot, wearing a school uniform. J

A picture or two, I mean.

There goes my night.

Taking the double decker bus home with Lim Wei Ren and talking all the way without stopping. Seriously, are we talkative or what? But I like.

Ciaos.

2011-02-27T17:51:00.000-08:00

No whining this time round.
You must be kidding me..

Malaysia is really a rustic country and there are somethingS I dreaded the most about their country.. You may wanna make a guess..
Food? Nope. Their food is relatively acceptable.
Malls? Definitely no! I bought stuff that I really need from their mall. Their mall resemble malls that the Caucasians go to.
People? Yes. Yes. I was ranting my thoughts to Wei Ren regarding their people, they may have followed the fashion but one thing they cannot strip off from them is their SUA KU look. Right? Did I hit your spot? Did I make you go, ‘OH YA! THAT’S THE WAY TO DESCRIBE THEM!’?! Obviously I did. J They are obviously ignorant. They thought that Singaporeans (who are also Asians) know nothing about Mandarin. So they talk blatantly in Mandarin thinking that we do not understand them.
That’s just one thing..
Next…
THEIR TOILET!
Oh my god, I really love Singapore although we do not have the cleanest toilet.. But our toilet is acceptable and I must say; they are beyond acceptable, just look at the toilet in malls! (Don’t talk about kopitiams underneath your block please.) Malaysia’s toilets are forever filthy, EVERY toilet.

Other than shopping, we visited Ah Gong and Gu Gu.

The cock they reared, with absolutely gorgeous feathers.

Didi, they called him. Everytime when I go, he will either be sleeping or have gone somewhere else, this is the first time I get to see him actively participating in our activity(nothing much though).

How can I not camwhore when my baby has finally recovered?! Olympus baby did a great job yesterday!

My hiao boyfriend, he definitely got his hiao-ness from me. :P

Yes, awesome legs but what about your circumference? Sigh.

Our child. Yeah yeah yeah. Didi should wear pink right?

I am like super chio can?

Went to The Store not The Stone, Mr Lim.

A huge market place.

Camwhoring mission completed. Last picture that consisted of us for the day.

They sell scrumptious fishball noodles there! I like it, even I like it. You will like it.

That sums up my day in Malaysia and the first time with Wei Ren along. :)

Ciaos.

2011-02-25T18:52:00.000-08:00

Wait for it…!

Greenridge's basketball jersey is so hot right?

No?
I know why.. Because! You're currently at Jasmineissohot.blogspot.com!

Kthxbai.

Alright! The above picture shouts, OLYMPUS BABY IS BACK!!! Its mommy, who is ME, got her a layer of RED genuine leather to personalize it. We accessorize ourselves right? She has a hiao mommy and therefore my baby is gonna be as hiao as me! How can my baby not be? I mean.. You people have been talking about how awesome DSLR is.. Yes, I don’t deny the fact that it is good, heyyo, my baby snap pictures with the quality tantamount to a DSLR. PLUS, I can accessorize it; can your DSLR do it? *Grins*

Well, whatever you like. I love my baby.

Meaning.. I will have more to update now with my baby by my side!

WOOOOOHOOOOOOO! COOL OR WHAT?!

The distance to collection was dreadful.. I mean.. I couldn’t imagine handling the ride alone although I can definitely do so.. SBG was awesome enough to accompany me for this wearisome and draggy ride. Oh definitely, it was kinda fun, pretending that we didn’t know each other and texting each other all the way during the ride! Not to forget, criticizing fellow commuters (the best part, you trust me.)!

Table tennis was definitely awesome! Well, pardon me, I am a beginner! Stop hurling me all the table tennis terms! Smash, how?!

Alright, Lim Wei Ren went to fish yesterday night and only got home early in the morning. Nope, in the afternoon.

I remember asking him yesterday, ‘Who could possibly stand such long hours just to wait for a fish to get hooked!?’ (something like that) He told me that old men are up to the task! Well.. So I warned him not to stare at old ladies there. You won’t want to get caught up in any dissensions with old energetic men there.. OhhhhOhhhh..

They may be old but strong. Years of hauling big and succulent fishes..

That’s why.

2011-02-23T21:14:00.000-08:00

Pardon me, ooops.

Overdue New Year pictures!
Chu Er at Ah Yi's.
Yeah, she hired the Lion Dance and they performed their ritual. A long and noisy process. :/
Okay, I've nothing else to say but to scram off now.

Correcting people's English is oh-so-fun!

Ciaos!

2011-02-22T00:38:00.000-08:00

MY BOBBI BROWN HAS FINALLY ARRIVED!

Okay, I'm happygal93! Awwwww!
Kid you kids!
I'm really happy, all the waitings are finally over!
I was eating and suddenly mommom came and handed over me a small package..
Instantly I knew, my Bobbi Brown has arrived! Unwrapped that dang package and woooooo! I was soooo happy! Okay, my main motive was to share the joy.. KIDDING! I just wanna post these brushes up because I find my blog hanging without many pictures to hold people back..
KIDDING!
Whatever it is.. I'm happppppppy!

Met up with DA today right after Sheng Shiong with mommom..
It was so fun yo! I mean, the first thing we did was.. BITCHING.
It has always been our past time favourite activity..
Be it on the phone, meeting up, or even msn conversation..
And sadly, bitching period was short today because this meet up was a spontaneous one..
So, next time, we must go out before our school begins, Dumbass!
Its been so long.. About 2 years to be exact.. Don't lose contact with me again!
So long!

P/s: Please don't smoke, DA.

2011-02-21T18:01:00.000-08:00

Now what?

I had a great great time with my darling Ruba Lakshmi!
Not to forget the rest who were with us yesterday.. Most importantly, I’d lots of fun.

Okay. I’m kinda angry with facebook. Plus. Who the fuck FLAGGED my photo?! Have you people never seen dicks before?! IT IS AT THE SAME TIME COVERED BY THAT PERV’S palms! Okay so you know.. I met another pervert since the starting of 2011. Like what Lum said, his pseudo crotch, too insignificant to be noticed.
I really would like to show you people that screen shot I saved. Wanna take a look? If yes, leave me a message and I will definitely upload it! *Hint hint* please ask me to upload! :p

Other than that, I’ve nothing else to rant about.
You just wait and give me a lil more time for something eventful to happen in my life..

2011-02-19T17:50:00.000-08:00

The chase, people?

Why is everything so complicated NOW?
I'm settled. I already am.
Why come to me once I'm settled?
What are you guys trying to prove?

If you don't know, I wanna tell you..
I am super strong.
I don't see anyone else.
Even when my friends go, 'He's so hot (maybe he really is)!!!' when they saw a guy on a random street.. I don't see whats so hot about him because I (two lines back) DON'T SEE ANYONE ELSE.
Not even slightly hot. This solid. Who can?
I am even stronger than my boyfriend, guys.
Yes, I am this confident.

Where were you people when I was still unsettled trying to die a spinster?

I'm happy with my life right now, satisfaction guaranteed.

Kthxbai.

2011-02-17T17:15:00.000-08:00

Request permitted.

Okay, scrutinize my awesome (just-taken, fyi) body.

I woke up in the morning feeling all sores and aches.. Then I stood in front of the mirror looking at myself.. Since people are asking you to show them, there is no wrong to do so right?

Plus, I can win some bragging rights at the same time!

So yeah! Here you go. Oh pardon for this really low resolution picture, Olympus will be fixed soon and currently, HTC taking over. Gosh.

My main motive is to haolian here can?

Because according to this person, I've no humility.. Which, I DO but not to her/him.

Please stuff your head into some god-forsaken ostrich egg and stfu. If you want to ask me some constructive questions about your miserable pitiful life, I can still show you some sympathy and answer you courteously. Now I say. Why my downfall isn't here yet? Miss-know-it-all tells you why, because I'm so god-damn confident of myself that downfalls are afraid of me. SUCK IT ALL UP.

kthxbai.

2011-02-16T18:03:00.000-08:00

Time to pour some awesome-ness over my neglected blog.

As I was scrolling through Facebook, reading what people posted on their wall, I got so sick of Facebook suddenly. I can easily give you 10 good reasons how fucked up Facebook is.

1. People keep posting their emotional goodnight messages.
Facebook is not your fucking husband to say goodnight at dumb shit.

2. There is NO such thing as a FACEBOOK TRACKER.
So shut up and stop saying, 'Hey! This works!', no it doesn't.

3. To those people who have 21543179464 friends,
Are you kidding me? You're stupid, go get a life and play in the traffic.

4. Don't ever post pictures saying that you're ugly.
If you were, you wouldn't even post them. If you do, you're just plain dumb.

5. Who cares if I don't accept you as a friend? MOVE ON! Don't send me another request or message asking me, 'Whats up with you not accepting me?'.
I don't want you as a friend, thats whats up, arse.

6. If you open a message or spam saying that if you don't repost it in 100 seconds some ghost is gonna rape you tonight, or some dead bitch is gonna rape your mom tonight.
Seriously? Can you please? Just stop being dumb?

7. Facebook was created to keep up with friends. Quit trying to check up on your wasted ex.
You might as well be sitting in front of their house with a binocular.

8. People who send you a million fucking application invites.
I don't want to be part of your god damn mafia wars, manage your virtual hotel or join your gay club. So lay the fuck off!

9. Stop making groups saying that facebook will shut down if a million people don't 'Like this'.
Like holy shit, go GET A LIFE!

10. If kindly accepted, don't ask stupid questions in the conversation, 'What are you doing?'.
You are asking the obvious, on the net? Asking for a fucking troll.

UNLEASHED.

Okay okay.. I know I sounded super annoyed when I typed all the above but I was smiling and secretly laughing.. Laughing at how awesome I can be actually! WAHAHAHA.

You tell me, am I right to say so?

2011-02-14T19:15:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day

My valentine wasn't anywhere special except that I didn't spend it alone this year.

I didn't want to make Valentine a huge huge event, nothing flamboyant, just as per normal.

Why do I want my boyfriend to love me for only one day, during this commercial holiday?

Everyday is our valentine's day. :)

This is the best valentine gift out of all and it was given to me by Wei Ren's maid, Aunty Elsie (LC).

I was practically smiling from ear to ear after receiving it!

I mean.. I was flabbergasted by her actions and I truly appreciate it.

Her husband and children are not with her during such occasions, the least I could do is to let her join in with us. She MUST NOT be left out.

I've also grown more attached to her in an inexplicable way.

Aunty Elsie, we have more to come. Thank you for making my day so memorable. ♥

You tell me how you'd like to spend your Valentine's day next year.

KISSING IS HEALTHY. BANANAS ARE GOOD FOR CRAMPS. CHICKEN SOUP ACTUALLY MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER. ITS TRUE. GUYS DO INSULT YOU IF THEY LIKE YOU. HAVING SOMEONE RUB YOUR TUMMY WHEN IT HURTS ACTUALLY HELPS IT. 89% OF GUYS WOULD WANT GIRLS TO MAKE THE FIRST MOVE. GIRLS LOVE IT WHEN GUYS HUG THEM FROM BEHIND THE WAIST. GIRLS LOVE IT WHEN GUYS LET THEM WEAR THEIR HOODIE OR JACKET. GUYS THINK ITS CUTE WHEN YOU MESS UP. A TRUE FRIEND WILL NEVER JUDGE YOU.THERE IS ONLY ONE GUY WHO IS WORTH YOUR TEARS. IF YOU HAVE A DREAM ABOUT SOMEONE, THEN THAT PERSON WENT TO SLEEP THINKING ABOUT YOU.MORE GUYS THAN GIRLS WILL READ THIS.♥

Hahahahahaha.

2011-02-09T18:56:00.001-08:00

DEFINITION OF LOVE :

Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect her to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect her to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans. But that’s the thing. Love isn’t a plan. It doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it.

Love happens; it is so incredibly messy. People around you can’t comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can’t see. They can’t see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you’re in love. It’s inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can’t live without it. What you don’t learn is how hard love is. How much work it takes. How much of ourselves we have to put into it. How it isn’t worth it until we are complete and utter idiots about it.

Love isn’t her calming you down when you yell. It’s her yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. It isn’t her/him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable.

It’s after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet her showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It’s not her saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. So no, it’s not her caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright. It’s her standing there, admitting she’s just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another persons hands and said, here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat. Or forget I ever handed it to you. As long as you have it.

It makes us crazy. It makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn’t cross. Because love isn’t about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It’s about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And it’s a hell of a lot better, than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of a difference between feeling ‘happy’ and feeling whole.

I know.

2011-02-09T18:34:00.000-08:00

Oh no.. I'm so stressed out..

I've not collected enough pictures to update my blog but yet I've received lots of comments from people asking me to please update..

Oh no...

Okay...

I just wanna say..

Blame it on my stupid camera that I couldn't snap any awesome pictures and henceforth the uber late update for my CNY.

I'm gonna get that slut fix real soon. Oh my god. :(

CNY ended real quickly and I dare say, this is kinda the first time I whined because CNY ended..

Hahaha, shows that I enjoyed the whole period.

♥

COUSINS, PLEASE BE A SAMARITAN AND TAG ME ALLL THE PHOTOS! :((((((

Oh yeah.. Camera broke down.. Which means?

GO GENTING NO PICTURES!

NB.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2011-02-01T16:42:00.000-08:00

I broke it, the it in my life.

I became adventurous, I led you on even though my mind was still fighting to settled.

For this once, I was right doing the wrong thing.. Leading you on and on.

Now you may not be able to understand what I was trying to say..

It is okay because what I wanna tell you will be told slowly, bit by bit as we go along.

Its so much that sometimes I sit back and wonder if we will be able to finish.

I won't be the one who will always be keeping our conversation alive, you too.

Its the beginning, it doesn't have to be grand, sweet nor romantic. I need none.

Just be that pillar there, forever erected for me.

We are challenged.

I am gamed.

Are you?

That aside.

Oh cmon.. I really hate staying home nowadays..

Mom being the reason why.. Perhaps because poppy isn't home and she's getting paranoid..

SHE KEEPS WANTING ME TO HELP HER WITH CHORES.

WHAT?

I did.. I packed all of my stuff already, like really..

What else does she want from me really?

I tried to understand her, I did.

Is she nuts?

Why would I send her to some low, rundown cheap old folks home?

Why keep doubting your daughter? ARE YOU FUCKING NUTS?

I'm really upset by what she said. She totally sprouted nonsense without thinking for our feelings.

An eye for an eye.

SHE'S MY MOM.

Furthermore.. An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.

I don't wanna be like a teenage girl, ranting on my blog, spreading my unhappiness to whoever who come across. Sadly.. I already did.

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I'm happy already. :)

2011-01-31T19:39:00.000-08:00

2011-01-30T19:03:00.000-08:00

That has totally become my motto in life. Actually.. It has always been.

I'm really mad right now.. My camera broke down! It was still alright really! Right after I charged it, it couldn't operate. Mommom is gonna drive me to get that slut fixed.

I told ya. RIGHT FROM THE START.. I'm a very selfish person. :p

2011-01-24T21:51:00.000-08:00

I am really very curious by this person's act, really.

Is she nuts or something?

She needs to consult a psychologist because I find her mentally unstable.

I'm angry because why?

Read.

Are you nuts?

YEAH, YOU HATE ME, I HATE YOU (VERY UNIVERSAL THING).

Why criticise something that is not even related to you? Because you just like to criticise everything that is related to me.

I mean.. Look at you..

Brain? Nah.

Looks? Nah.

Body? Nah.

Boobs? YES!

What can you do with only BOOBS? Okay.. Lets look at it in another manner..

AT LEAST you have something.. See that?! I didn't put you down totally..

What's your motive of doing all of these things?

Maybe you will feel happier when people comes to my blog and go SUAN-ing your looks and everything?

I TELL YOU.

I'm DEFINITELY better than you, chio-er than you, SMARTER than you, have a better body than you and definitely, MUCH MORE LOVABLE THAN YOU.

BECAUSE.. I don't go around trying to be sour about people's life.

At least, I'm happy that I ain't a parasite in the society. I make good contributions.

I don't pollute the air, I don't smoke.

I got scholarships and make Greenridge proud, where are you? Spiting saliva on the board with Greenridge logo on it?

I mean seriously..

Why do I have to feature you in my blog always.. Because you gave me life! As if.

You gave me a topic to start off with.

WHY comment on a show that you haven't even seen it yet? Have some courtesy..

Even if that show is awesome, you would still criticise it because JASMINE is in it. Maturity where? Underneath your boobs? Can't see it?

Barbara Haine À L'amour just words to tell my friend is there anything wrong?i didn't say it right at the director face right?

12 minutes ago ·

Jasmine Low You said it at an open cyber space where one of the actor could see it. Just words to your friend, directing that the show is shit. I didn't know you already knew what show it was gonna be that you could provide an instant review. I really don't mind you going around asking your friends, perhaps scorning at me because thats all you could do. But this is an unprotected cyber space where your actions and words are closely scrutinise by people all around.

9 minutes ago ·

Barbara Haine À L'amour don't understand laaa! act chim.

3 minutes ago ·

Jasmine Low I don't have to try to be profound. It comes naturally. If I were to act, I would have taken a longer time to reply you because I would have to search the dictionary for more bombastic words. Which I absolutely don't have to. What I wanted to say is simply just, if you have the courtesy to stop making things ugly, I would have the courtesy to not come in between you and your friends' conversation.

about a minute ago ·

The above shows how uneducated she can be. Those words that I'd just used wasn't even 'CHIM' according to me.. Study more maybe you can throw some back at me, duh.

Barbara Haine À L'amour then can't you just say like that from the start? Zzz.i want to use this kind of tone ask my friend lei. i like. is there anything wrong? Zzzz

2 minutes ago ·

This shows that she has absolutely nothing to say and henceforth she resorted to such a rowdy way of replying me.

Now. You be the judge and tell me if she needs to get a life and stop being jealous of whatever I have. Kthxbai.

2011-01-23T16:11:00.000-08:00

Back to school, but where were the teachers?

Shall We Talk? - Admirer scenes.

Mom drove me to the scene early in the morning after an awesome breakfast.. Thanks mommom and poppy!

Look at the clothes hanging, is that how we roll back then? Changing into school attire on the spot? Nah, this is a shoot!

The whole basketball team down to support!

They have school tomorrow. which will be today.. Therefore, they will have to complete their work, right?

She 'watches' me as 'I' grow up together with her 'son'. :D

Oh yes, Yan Han who was influenced by my oh-so-dramatic moves! I like!

Xin Ni, Kai Xu and Jason needs to do more.. :)

That pants, not acceptable in Greenridge Secondary! Bring me to Mr Ho!

Kevan: Huh?

Filming in progress...

Hassan.. OH! I meant.. JieMing, not that bad.. I was looking tanned.. :P

Kai Xu, our model for the day, right?

Zhao Wei definitely!

They kept trying to make Samuel laugh when I was desperately trying to have a nice shot of us. Pffft. Samuel is soooo cute!

Kevan didn't 'HUH?' me when I asked for a shot. Good Job.. Anybody? Give him a pen now!

This is a MUST KEEP! My lord! Jason! What happened?!

Now you know why I said Kai Xu was our model of the day.. In this scene, Jason was too! Their legs were needed to be on the show! Wanna spot them? Watch the show when it airs!

Wei Ren and I as high school sweetheart.

Watch 'Fighting Spiders'? He's the Charlie in 'FS'! Also for this show, my 'admirer'! Hahaha! By the way, his name is Shi Jie, :)

Co, patiently waiting..

I got to say.. They are an awesome bunch to hang out with..

Also a bunch of 'steady'. They came so early and complain nothing about going home so much later than stated.. Thank you guys! I hope there will be another time because you guys allowed me to enjoy the whole process absolutely!

Stay tune for more updates for 'Shall we talk?'.

It will be aired on MARCH!

Ciaos!

Lovel bby! I will be seeing you later! Oh no! Filming shaved us apart for days! HAHAHA!

Nah! Not that easy peeepo!

2011-01-21T03:39:00.000-08:00

Wei Loong didn't study today!

Wanna see what do bored people do? I know right?! Pretty much what you guys do as well..

Use webcam take photos lo..

HAHAHA!

Now another question..

Wanna see my naked face with a big red zit?!

Your wish, granted! :D

I know my skin good right! Hahahaha! :p

Bird face, totally awesome because I'm still very chio!

Eh, WeiRen! This hair is confirm, CONFIRMED Shuai-er please! GROW YOUR HAIR!

Nothing to do.. Where's Loong?!

Oh yeah! This picture is for Samuel! Hhahaha!

He silly! He thought that I was Yan Han!

'Ni hen cute leh samuel!!!'

HUH?

Hahahahahah! Laughed like an insane!

Looked at the wrong monitor.. Hahaha!

Loong's sooo cute can?!

Love people with small eyes. :p

Alamak.. Wrong monitor la..

Still wrong..

Dimples! They both have, I don't.. I have always had a thing for dimples!

By the way.. I love Greenridge PE T-shirt! Awesome right?!

Love it soo soo much!

Another tiring day tomorrow.

Continue the shoot for '爱要怎么说?'.

So people stay tune! I will updte you guys on the show!

It will be airing on March!

2011-01-13T02:28:00.000-08:00

Awesome.. Lesser updates.. Sorry can..

Hahaha!

Oh ya.. I had an interesting conversation with Barbara..

Today

gg which sch?

np la.. 

ahahahaha!

think so la..

ohhhh

\they havent accpt me yet..

what course?

nursing..

?

how many points you get?

nursing course.

8

wow!

that's great

yeah! so much for being ugly right!

ahahaha!

but!

nursing nice!

you interested?

very.

like seriously..

ok that's great

i wanna be an assistant..

persue your dreams then!

?

help surgical doctor do plastic surgery for ugly people..

hahahahaa!

thats interesting!

that's nice lol!

you can try!

try what
?

lol

try finding me next time la if you need help!

6:26pm

lol

no need 

thanks 

OKAY!

Barbara is offline. Your messages will be sent to their inbox.

Nice please? Hello.. I can take any harsh criticism from any shit. But still.. A person like you stand no where to talk about me. You gain no respect, hello? Btw.. In our conversation.. I mentioned that you need help from me right? Yes.. I'm serious. You need plastic surgery to survive in the society. Thanks and bye.

OH YEAH! I was being sarcastic to Barbara.. YES LA.. 8 points leh! Go nursing.. ARE YOU NUTS TO BELIEVE ME? I LIKE BEING SARCASTIC WHAT... I AM WHAT! HELLO.. BITCH = JASMINE? GEDDIT?

I so totally can say that.. WHO ARE YOU?

It is like.. I've to deal with such things so regularly that I got so used to it and people reading my blog got so bored of it.. Change can? Write something special..

Maybe be like Barbara?

'You're ugly.'.

WAIT.

Not special enough..

Something more awful la.. No blow one.. No fight!

SOOOOOO!

LALA, MY ATTITUDE IS SO ORIGINAL. PLEASE GO GET YOURS.

♥!

Ciaos!
An eye for an eye, makes my day so awesome.

2011-01-08T05:38:00.000-08:00

Be jealous or scram.

I'd the nicest day ever with Lovel bby of course!

So watch me go up and get my deserving award! Oh my god Jasmine.. Where's your humility?

Oooops, I dropped it along the way on stage..

I got 0330 for my seatings and yeahhhhhhhhhhh, Mummy said that she's so gonna buy 4D today.. If she did, sorry, 0330 did not appear.. :(

Texting Mr Lim as usual. :D

Look! No double chin leh! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Suck it people!

Right bby? I told you the 'formula' and yeahhhh! People shall be jealous of our body.. Skip meals more people! We like! :D

I smiled from one ear to another! *Look at my pearly whites*

With mommom! She came down to support for the first time! Red like a red packet!

With Ruba woman! I will never miss a shot with her!

Lovel BABYYYYYY! Oh my god..

There was a tramp who cut our queue for wanting to take photo with the guest of honour, Dr Teo Ho Pin.. What a tramp. Pfffft.

When I was on the stage..

*Shook hands*

Dr Teo: Congratulation, Good work!

Me: Thanks yo.

Dr Teo: Were you the one I talked to just now?

Me: Yes!

He's so happy seeing me! :D

Us!

Off to NorthPoint and then Max's!

I know I cute right! Hahahaha!

Soft and silky! Our horny ass!

Delectable cookies! Not the first one! No! Tasted like Max's cookies!

Thanks bby, I'd so much fun with you everyday.. ♥

2011-01-05T17:21:00.000-08:00

I've been sick these few days, like 15 days? Maybe more..

That explains the lack of inspiration and motivation to update at least the slightest part of my life.

BUT!

Today morning, although, I still couldn't taste any flavours of the foods that I eat, I am definitely better!

I was reading Lovel baby's blog today and hey.. I gotta share this..

This.. A lil story which can in turn help save a relationship, remind a person of how they fell in love and MARRIAGE.

Lovel would want me to help spread her love and I would definitely do so..

Albeit long and naggy, give me that few minutes of your life please.

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand

and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly.

Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to

open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want

a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me

softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw

away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night,

we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to

find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give

her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love

her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which

stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of

my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had

spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry

for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back

what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in

front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry

was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed

me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing

something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep

and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day

with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing.

I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't

want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.

She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal

a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a

month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me

to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of

our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy.

Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and

thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face

the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was

explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both

appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy

in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to

the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my

arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce.

I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She

went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on

my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't

looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young

any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our

marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done

to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning.

This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth

and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't

tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by.

Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses

but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown

bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why

I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the

moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father

carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife

gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my

face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute.

I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting

room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.

I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter

weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could

hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said,

I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out

of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make

me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to

her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished,

and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand

off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring

probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because

we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into

my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammedt

he door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife.

The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll

carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a
smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in
the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so
busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon
and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction
from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in
the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship.
It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These
create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give
happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend
and do those little things for each other that build intimacy.
Do have a real happy marriage!

Max is missing me already.. And I miss Lovel!!!

I needa fly over and see her soon!

YESTERDAY SHE AND HAO HAO! DILLY DALLY THEN WHAT?! SO LONG LEH! RIDICULOUS! SLASH THEM BOTH! HAHAHAHAH!

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Bowling was uh-uh.. SUPER AWESOME K?!

Okay, I bought my camera over and yet I didn't use it. Loser or what?

Very very very sad yo.. There were so many awesome actions waiting to be taken down..

Nevermind! I've backups! Lovel bby captured all of them! I promise you.. Unglam or what not, I will still upload them!

Now you just hafta stay patient and wait for her to upload and then I will go over and grab it from her..

WeiRen came over to meet me first before we head over to Lovel's.

I think he is allergic to some of the ingredients used for the pancake, his eyes swelled and some irritations started to appear on his skin.. Opps..

I'm sorry... But anyway, you won't be having any of my food already, rest assure. :)

I scored... A four bagger on behalf of WeiRen! And of course, that helped the team to nail the top position for the SPONTANEOUS competition right?! Hahaha!

We won $100 and it was divided into four. Awesome thing!

I'm sorry Ivin and Samuel for leaving you guys alone halfway through the game..

I'm sorry.. I should haven given the two of you my share..

Something cropped up, it was unpleasant but hey hey hey..

Mr Lim..

Sigh. Don't worry okay.

Everything is going on smoothly now.. Nothing is gonna change. Maybe there will be changes but you will be able to make do with it. Don't shut yourself up since you've decided to give it another go. I may be talking in a way which you feel that it was easy but trust me, I know a lot. I can sympathize, not you but your situation. Well. I'm not going to scorn at you if the outcome is a fiasco but if it awesome, I will be just so happy for you. However if it turns out nasty, I will pray hard enough for you that you will find someone awesome k.

I've never seen you so upset before and I never want to anymore.

Take care of yourself please, for you can only count on yourself.

Devote your time wisely next year, for there will be no one there reminding you anymore.

Learn to make the right decisions, for you will not be the only one bearing the consequences, those around you are included.

Listen to your heart, for I always do.

Ciaos.

Wait for me, I will update with the pictures!