Its a little depressing that my face is now red like apple and covered with scar marks. I was drenched with acid. Kidding.. You know I was kidding.. I went for facial and the redness was caused by Extraction, which refers to the method of removing your blackheads, pimples and whiteheads. It was not really painful but it all depends on your threshold for pain. I've a high level of pain tolerance, I don't know about you. I was grossed out when I heard how people choose between me and someone who I deem hideous. I was out chosen and that has never happened. Like seriously? I couldnt get enough of that bullshit with mummy. We were talking about that issue, and I showed mummy her photos. My mum, who doesn't like to criticise people, actually said this.. 'Not because you're my daughter that I say this, but really, she has no fight at all.. She looks so kiddy and she's just so not proportionate. How is she sweet looking pretty at all?' Now I hear justice. How can she possibly be compared against me? I agree. Because I've never been compared in such a manner and lost that I got so devastated. Thats unbearable. I must rant it out, I must talk to someone who understands what I mean. I usually don't get offended when people compare me to somebody because I definitely stand out.This time round, I got so affected and at the same time, offended. SHE'S FUCKING HIDEOUS. How I wish I can post her picture on my blog and say, 'You be the judge' again. I won't do it, I won't name her, I will give her a rest. Afterall, she has done nothing wrong and she wasn't the one who started the fire. She has nice skin, pimples free, but she's dark. Nothing wrong with being dark my Indian friends, but as a chinese, you're dark. Don't even try to make it sound nice, tanned, you're not at all but DARK.
Grossed me out a lil further more. I can't stop thinking and I just have a lot to say. I just can't swallow this and treat it as nothing has happened no matter how magnanimous I am. I love listening to such things but this is seriously an insult. You've no idea how insulted I felt after hearing this. I don't want to hear things like, 'Different people has different preference.' Shut up, she's way out of my league. Call me a bitch, I am Neither do I wanna hear, 'I will still choose you.' I'm sorry, you know who you are. Its not about who you will choose, it is about me. It is about how disgusting, abhorrent this whole shit is. I can't believe I am still smiling when I heard it. Okay. Okay.Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. True that. That doesn't apply to me.
